I've been in a bit of a funk the last few days. I am posting here now to let you all know that it is ok to not be ok! Angela reached out to me this morning via text to ask me if I was ok since I've been pretty quiet lately. When I started texting back to her I started to write "Hi there!! yeah, I'm great! Took Alex back to the airport....." and then I stopped. And I thought...no, I'm not ok. Why am I putting on a "brave" face and telling fibs to my Coach! The person I am supposed to be able to share it all with! I didn't want to burden her, I didn't want to sound like a whiner, I didn't want to show my vulnerability.....because I didn't want to be vulnerable. I stopped myself and I sent her a Marco Polo instead. I told her that I've been in a funk since around Thanksgiving and I was feeling guilty about it. I was sad that Alex was going back to CO, sad that Nick wasn't here for the holiday (even made the fact that he didn't come home about me...Angela reminded me that he was being a responsible adult and managing his time off from work!), got really sad when I was cooking on Wednesday that we weren't in our old home with all of our people surrounding us, sad that I'm having cataract surgery tomorrow, sad that my boys are across the country...etc, etc, etc. I've been holding all of that in and not admitting it. I didn't journal for 9 days...didn't even give myself that relief. Once I said all of the words...got it all out of my system by telling someone I felt SO much better!! My day much improved. She gave me some awesome advice and things to think about..as usual...I journaled, I made a food plan and I went out for a great walk and got a pedicure. My point? Don't hold it in! This is a safe place, WE are your people!!! Total no judgment zone...you can talk about anything (and I have! LOL!)! Post here...ask for support. Let us help you. Get live coaching..it is invaluable. I am taking a screenshot of this post to keep...so if/when I start bottling up again...I can read my own advice and reach out. I'm still sad...but that is ok. I can feel sad, but still, be ok!! It is 100% normal and ok to not be ok....life is 50/50 after all!!! Love you all!!