Shitty thought spiral…
Happy September!
August didn’t go as I had hoped.
I had planned to spend the month at our shore house with grand plans of getting all of my workouts in, get on a good eating plan, call a repairman to fix some things in the house and a bunch of other maintenance things around the house.
I went down on the 8th and wasn’t feeling great, but thought it was allergies.
Went to the doctor on the 9th and found out I had Covid and a sinus infection and continued to feel pretty horrible for most of the month.
I tried to look at the bright side.
I was at the beach…there’s no better place to convalesce.
I was alone so I could do as little or as much as I wanted.
I was able to order groceries and have them delivered.
However, it took a toll on me.
I ended up feeling extremely cranky because thoughts about this month were swirling through my head.
This is my journal entry from last week…
“I haven’t journaled. I haven’t gone to the gym. Stayed up to late. Slept in too late. Yup, this is how I chose to live the last couple of weeks. I wasted August. Didn’t call the repairmen, didn’t clean the outside furniture, didn’t clean the garage. Haven’t gone to the beach except for the full moon ceremony. Haven’t hardly walked. I have done NOTHING! I have been a lazy fuck. There I said it, I am a lazy fuck! Yes, I’ve been sick but seriously…you could’ve gone to the gym a few times by now. You could’ve washed the floor. You could’ve called the handyman. You could’ve done SOMETHING, you lazy FUCK!”
Woah!! I would not talk to ANYONE else like that!
If any one I know told me they wrote that about themselves I’d say....
”you had covid and a sinus infection. You did EXACTLY the right thing by resting. You are not a lazy fuck and you did do something. You gave your body the chance to recover and get better. None of that stuff you listed is more important than taking care of yourself. You should feel proud that you took care of yourself.”
And that’s what I’ve chosen to tell myself since that day.
I decided I was going to stop being so mean to myself.
I did not want to stay in that nasty thought spiral anymore.
What helped me get out of that thought spiral?
The things I have learned through life coaching.
-I sat down and journaled all of that shit out of my head.
- I recognized how I was feeling.
-I allowed myself to feel cranky after I wrote that in my journal without trying to force myself to think and feel differently.
-I got coaching from my coach.
And, through those steps I was able to remind myself that feeling that way was a choice.
I could choose to continue to feel so hateful towards myself.
Or, I could choose to accept that I did the right thing.
I chose the latter and that’s what I’ve been thinking all week, which leads me to taking action that feels good.
I’m giving myself grace.
I rest when I need to rest.
I’m getting some walking in.
I’m doing some lighter workouts in the gym..
I’m eating well.
I’m drinking my water.
And other supportive things.
This is your reminder that our brains tell us some pretty shitty things at times.
We don’t have to believe them…we can challenge them (if we want to) and we can change them (if we want to).
I am the Get Real coach for women, what you see is what you get.
I can help you identify your shitty thought spirals.
I can help you challenge your thoughts.
I can help you figure out if you want to change your thoughts or not.
Click the link and schedule your 30 minute consultation.
I’d love to talk to you.
I live unapologetically me and can help you live unapologetically you. xoxo
